Mind games? Or am I going crazy

Chapter 16

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Diana's POV:

"All I ever think about it you" as the song blasted through the radio, maybe it's time to walk away, he won't ever think the same.

They say one side love might kill you why might you ask? Cause it's fighting through your heart and mind, your mind is the sane part were it's like do not think of him that way or you'll regret it, but then again there's the other part....my heart where it's like Diana let go darling let go you only live once, what's the point of not saying what you want? What's the point of not living your life?

As I got up and gathered myself, I texted him "same place? Same time?"

-ping- "ya babe, same place...wanna change?"

"No I don't just wanna make sure you can met up today"

"Diana babe, we always have these met ups what's wrong with this time?"

"Nothing Ki, it's just I know it's Sa'ad's Birthday I think you should go to that..."

"Diana, I said I'm coming now get ready and don't take your extra 20 mins" -smirking- *how did I know, I knew him*

"Hay hay what's that suppose to mean?"

"It means babe come on leave the phone I'm waiting for you there"

"But Ki it's 30 mins before our time.."

"I know, now come on before I get going"

"Really, I'm already half of the way"

"Come on D I know your still tying your boots.."

"Bye Ki"

"Bye D"

He was so annoying I hated how he knew what i was doing, as I got my boots on I headed of to our meet up place.

"Don't worry about it D just take a deep breath", the thing I was chanting to myself to maybe calm myself down, never works but I still do it even though.

As I got to our place I saw Ki was on the bench usually I'm the early one....

Whistling as I got near him, he got up whistling a song I knew damn well, he smiled at me in a way that could make the whole stars ignited, he had this spark in him that always lit me.

Ki: "hay babe, how have you been?" -still smiling-

D: "hay Ki how many times do I have to tell you not to call me that?!" -annoyed- "I'm good you?"

Ki: "Diana what's wrong?"

D: "Ki it's just something has been bothering me..."

Ki: "you know we do these meet ups every once in a while, let it out tell me what's bothering you" -serious mood-

D: "Ki Sara talked to me a while ago about you guys.." -wanting him to deny or confirm it-

Ki: "what's between us D?"

D: "I don't have to tell you already know" -getting annoyed-

Ki: "when you decide to tell me, call me but I'm not playing these guess what games with you" -getting up-

As he was getting up I jumped up and wrapped my hands around his sleeve covered arms in a tight hold as I said "she said you and her like each other and that your gonna go out to a party together..." *really ashamed it came to the point that I had to point it out to him*

Ki looked up to me and smiled "really babe that was what was bothering you" he kept on looking in my eyes which outraged me how could he be so calm "you know what I mean" -annoyed I dropped my hands from his arms-.

Ki lifted my chin and whispered "D no one is gonna take your place babe", I couldn't not add "let anyone try" a chuckle from him was enough to make me smile again.

We continue to talk till He had to go so I called Lara so we can go and hang out.

First thing that came out of Lara's mouth was "D why Ki's ex here?!!" "Here where?! Lara??" -the line died-

Checking through her location I pinpointed her at Sa'ad's Villa *why the hell was she there and why the hell is Ki's ex there"

Looking at my outfit I might not be as perfectly dressed but I don't care no one messes with what's mine.

I will write my name on all your cells

You might think I have gone crazy

So I can make sure they can see my name written on each and every part of you

You might think I have gone crazy

But I want then they even try to take your blood to see my name written on your blood cells

As if I live in them and for everyone to know my name and the fact that you are mine

You might think I have gone crazy

But baby I'm not crazy I'm insane.

-Aceel RD

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15-11-2015

My thoughts, something from the past...

Chapter 14

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Diana's POV:

I can't believe him, he had the nerve the nerve to go out with her and not tell me!! We're supposed to be friends more that friends too, how could he do such a thing.

I should call him and give him a piece of my mind, should I or should I not....no no I'm gonna do it face to face it's not like I'm not gonna see him I definitely will.

What pissed me off was the fact that Sara had the nerve to take a picture of them, together!!! Then post it everywhere and comment with my babe....who's babe?!!

Damn I'm so pissed how could he be such a backstabbing person not only that but with the person I hate the most, then not tell me about it!! You know I'm alive like seriously?!

He even had the nerve to text me after.

It's like we were nothing, I know we might just be friends but we were more than that believe me, I still can't believe him.

The fact that I wanted to have this massive party for your birthday, I guess this year were not celebrating you can celebrate it with Sara.

Sara has always hated me it's not like I have all that she has maybe it's the fact that I don't show it off to anyone like she does, or maybe the fact that i was a decent human being, was it the beginning of us not being anything.....

I just hope this is only my thinking that you'll come and explain it, I hope you do that all before your birthday I already have everything arranged maybe I'll leave it that way but not come to the party that day.

I would rather see the day my thoughts are wrong

Than to see the day where they are right.

I should sleep away all these thoughts tomorrow is a new day, maybe it's all a mistake.

-Aceel RD

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10-10-2015

From angry to calm as a click of his voice

Chapter 14

Mr know it all POV:

As it's been a week I know you might think that's quick and what might it change in my life, I know I can get any other girl...but when you have one that has your heart without trying that's when you want her for no one but you.

So here I am trying to push through getting anywhere with my babe but it's like she's blocked me on Twitter, Path, Skype, what's app too so I checked up on the last thing Kik well I guess she forgot to block me.

As I though of what I could write to her, I knew she liked all those mushy stuff but we were friends as she wants that so let's see what can I write.

Roses are red

Violets are blue

You know my ego is huge

Only you can tame the shrew

No no I can't write her that I'm not gonna lie she's mentioned my ego a lot, I can't seem to think of any thing other than funny stuff  I love pissing her off she's just adorable, she hates when I say that so I should add that too.

Okay okay so let's start this again...

My baby...I know you hate me calling you that but like your just like baby my baby sis you jump to conclusions did I say I wasn't gonna talk to you...you don't count as those 'girls' your family I don't let go of family that easily....now stop being your grumpy cute self and unblock me...my little red velvet if I'm not there for you to blow up on then who will....

Your babe ;D

Ki

Okay I think this is the best think I can come up with so I hope it works if not I gonna try my other plan, I sent it at 11 when I knew she would definitely have nothing so she'll read it straight away.

As I was waiting for her to reply I decided to go to the beach drink something get my mind out of everything, I went to Starbucks the one on the beach as it was crowed but I always go to that branch I knew all those who were working. As soon as I entered I told Eyad to make me my two shot cappuccino, I sat down going through what the boys said of the camping trip they are thinking about till my phone buzzed then straight away, I got a call I don't even have to say from who...your right it's her.

Me: "hello...who is this?"

Her: "you know damn well who the hell am I!!" -angrily/shouting might I add-

Me: "oh hi babe-"

Her: "don't hay babe me mister.." -trying to calm herself down-

Me: "come on Velvet..."

Her: "Ki don't start I wanted to talk to you will take my anger out...you know you pissed me by your message" -she didn't even take a breathe she said it all together-

Me: "I know babe I'm sorry" -smiling-

Her: "why are you happy? I'm not done with you"

Me: "I know babe...you've got all night to be angry at me now how's everything been?"

Her: "Ki" -pouting how did I know her voice would get higher-

Me: "ya..."

Her: "everything is alright but you know your timing is the worst...remember Lama the one I talked to you about..."

From 11 till 12 she kept on talking nonstop, till I had to tell her goodnight cause I need to go to sleep as I got back home, she told me like always sweet dream...I kept on teasing her only if your in them she got quite till she said stop the nonsense I did but I really hoped I did dream about her.

But what I forgot to tell her I had to go and our usual conversation will have to stop till I come back from my trip....what will happen if she knew Sara is coming on that trip too.

-Aceel RD

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29-9-2015

Simple words...tragic changes.

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Any questions i'm here whenever, I would love to know what you think will happen 

Chapter 13

Mr know it all's POV :

waiting patiently for her I can't believe how truly hard headed she was even though I got to know her, she's still stubborn as hell.

 *ping* "waiting for you where are you??"

-you always added  another ? To make me know that you're waiting for a reply now-

*sent* "on my way babe"

*ping* "stop calling me that!!!"

*Waking while sending* "okay my little red velvet"

As I came near to our place I fixed my jacket and everything, whistling as always letting her know I'm here.

It never gets old the way she whips her head around to see me like our meet ups but this time it was different I had to tell her something very important.

Me: "hay babe"

Her: "stop calling me that Ki (her nickname for him)"

Me: "whatever red velvet...so I think I should tell you why were here so soon"

Her: "yes please, you know I can't always meet up this soon"

Me: "ya I know but you know how we're friends really close ones, I didn't want this to come between us so I had to tell you...I know this girl she's been my fling for a while I think I might wanna stay with her..."

Her: "Ki and what's the problem..?" -looking at me weirdly 'what's the matter look'-

Me: "she told me to be loyal...I think she means as in no girls at all.."

Her: "oh really Ki so I'm another one of your girls thanks so much..." -pissed off- -getting up she put on her cap on again getting ready to leave-

Me: "no but you know what I mean babe.."

Her: "save it Ki for your new girl.."

As she took off I couldn't stop her as I know her she would blow up on my face so I let her go.

I didn't know that meant that she will cut off everything...her phone...social networks she blocked me...it's like she wanted me out.

But little did she know I'm not as easy to get rid of and she's my baby sis I don't let go that easily call me crazy but I've got my ways.

I can't believe you'd believe such simple words my red velvet.

-Aceel RD

Twitter: @AceelRD

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26-9-2015 

Smile?

Diana's POV:

As the days went on I tried to not think of my decision, I tried to work my self out of thinking about it. I remember after I told mum how happy she was, the way she told me my little Diana has grown up, nearly made me cry.

But as always I thought of those times, the times where he meant so much to me, the time when he was the reason behind my smile, the time when he was the only one that could ease me out of my pain, times and times.

But as the morning came I got ready for my summer internship, *yawing, I got out of bed* headed off to take my morning shower so I could maybe wash away my tiredness.

I got dressed in my work pickup and went off to my internship. As I went inside, said hi to everyone and then went off to my cubical checking the work that one of the co workers gave me to look over.

Reading over and over the report a couple of times, I started getting into 'my work self' where I hate being bothered everyone in the office knows that too, *it can't be that long of a land, haunted for centuries...and for them to discover it now is just amazing...* as I continued to analyze the context my iPhone rang -looking up from the papers I looked and saw it was an unknown number *maybe it's one of the girls or the boss or something* so I answered-

Me: "hello?" -adding abut of firmness to my voice (as if the caller's not gonna know)-

The person: "hi, Diana how are you? Hope I'm not calling at a bad time..or are you asleep?....shit -mumbling-"

Me: "sorry I didn't catch your name? And who are you?" *how the hell does he know my name + why's he all nervous?*

The person: "oh ya sorry, I'm fares..."

Me: *what the hell?!* *how did he get my number? And I said that voice sounds familiar..* "oh hi"

Fares: "hi Diana, sorry if I caught you off guard but I just wanted to say hi and maybe get to know you a little more...I got your number for my mum I'm not like a stalker..." -mumbling-

Me: "mmmm hay it's alright just I didn't expect it but thanks of asking I'm good and you?"

Fares: "I'm good summer term you know...".....

And the conversation went on and on for a little over an hour, in the beginning I was a bit nervous but as we got into asking each other stuff it got easier...God do I miss smiling again.

Maybe oh maybe I just 

I need to forgive and see where life will lead me?

Forget about 

what others 

what my heart

Thinks

And just go with my fate

If anything it's good or bad

It Will stay my fate

So I'd rather live my life and accept my fate

Than wait for what's still coming on the way

I know it's late

But maybe it won't be too late

-Aceel RD

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5-March-2015

Letter I

Dear sweet pea, princess

Well beautiful I've been thinking of you lately, the way you'll look will you be a replica of your daddy or will you have my dark brown eyes.

I'm trying my hardest to keep this world safe for us baby, but it's hard seeing as the ones that are in charge are the one's that are causing this craziness, but don't you worry baby I'll try to keep our home safe for us.

Beautiful I know that bringing you into this world won't be easy not only that but the thought of me ruining your life kills me every day, but know one thing sweet pea your daddy will be there to keep me sane and content.

I really hope that I'll get to give you an older brother to take care of you and be your saving grace. Baby I don't know what my future or yours will hold but I want to make sure that if me or your daddy aren't there that you'll still have love and safety in your life baby.

Sweet pea first thing I want to teach you is to pray to God for anything you want cause you were once my wish, my dream, my prayer and look how your tiny hand are wrapped around my finger.

Baby I know for sure when you come into mine and your daddy's life our love will multiply.

Cause baby

I can't wait to see that little beautiful face,

I can't wait to see your daddy's eyes sparkle with pride,

I can't wait to see you sand up on your tiny feet,

I can't wait for you to start talking,

I can't wait for the day I get to braid your beautiful hair,

I can't wait for you to enter my life,

Baby I can't wait to see you with my own eyes.

I know baby that you'll cry days at night and I'll try to hush you down with a couple of words, baby I hope you remember them cause one day I way not be there to tell you them so remember them, remember how much love they held.

After writing all of that baby I remembered that I may not get the chance to feel all of that, I don't know if I'll get a future with you and your daddy, that's why your always in my prayers....baby once you get older I'll tell you all the prayers I prayed for you and me.

If I ever get to see your beautiful eyes just for a moment that would make me the happiest person alive, so baby if your daddy ever gives you this letter without me know that I mean each and every word in it.

Baby take care of your daddy please.

Your mommy, your guardian

Forever looking over you,

Aceel RD

1st of December, 2014

Engaged?

Chapter 11

Ma'an's POV:

As I sat in the plane, waiting for take off I remembered the text I got yesterday I'm sure it's Diana who else could it be? -sending- "Diana?"..... W Al7mdullah I reached safely, after I got settled in Jordan.

 I opened the text again and saw it was seen but there wasn't a response, i wondered why did she ignored it was weird. So I decided to call and see how everything's going over there.

Mum: "hay honey, I missed you, I guess all those fit (hot in British) girls in Jordan made you forget your family." -jokingly-

Me: "Al7mdullah wallah mum I really miss you, tsk tsk you know none of them can compare to you."

Mum: -laughing- "how's college and the housing are you settled down alright?"

Me: "Started going to classes at the Royal Jordanian Air Academy. As for the housing I found a house near the academy, the country is really nice talk to dad and come visit me as soon as possible"

Mum: "inshallah honey of course, allah ywf8ak w yysrlak all your studies (prayer in Arabic)"

Me: "Ya I wanted to ask you what happened with the girl?"

Mum: "I called her mum and she said the girl has already gotten engaged"

Me: "....... What engaged??! When and who?" -shocked-

Mum: "I don't know but her mother told me it wasn't an official engagement, because the boy's mother wants them to get to know each other first and see where it go's from there" -calmly-

Me:"..........., isn't she suppose to be my fiancé?!!!" *i remembered the text at the same time who could it be from?*

Mum: "they got there before us" "it was for the best either way" -hushed voice-

Me: "I know that didn't like her from the beginning, the problem is you know that I wanted her and you staled till they got her first"

Mum: "I'm your mother and I know what's best for you, don't think about her God will bring you someone better, only good will happen"

Me: "what I wanted is what's gonna happen"

Mum: "9le 3la Al nbe (like a phase we say it's like calm down) and think of your studies"

Me: "inshallah take care of yourself, say hi to dad and goodnight"

Mum: "of course inshallah, you too take care of yourself and goodnight"

After I finished the phone call I went to sleep.

The next day after jama'ah prayer in the mosque I went back home and thought I've got a bit of time why don't I get dressed up today, dressing up in a pair of dark jeans and black V-neck.

As I was in college i remembered the text, who could it be from, I sat there thinking about 'those days', what's weird is that were there really people that still had my number *it's funny thinking about it*.

Finishing my classes, walking out of the academy by mistake I bumped into a girl.

Me: *isn't she a beauty* oooh sorry i didn't mean to bump into you, did you get hurt"

The girl: "no I'm the one that's sorry, It was my fault"

Me: "are you in our academy?"

The girl: "no me and my friend were suppose to meet up here so she can take me home but she just canceled, telling me she got busy"

Me: "ooh, that's not a problem I'll take you, if you don't mind...."

The girl: "mmmm okay"

Me: "just a thought but you kinda look familia"

The girl: "oh really?" -her mouth went into a small O-

Me: "you just reminded me of someone...."

The girl: -smiled-

As we were walking we started to talk about ourselves, majors and stuff she turned out to be a Jordanian that lived in Saudi (jeddah), her major was design. 

Reaching her house at her door.

The girl: "Come,eat some lunch with us your more that welcomed and drink a cup of coffee."

Me: "no I won't bother you, next time inshallah"

The girl: "okay I won't take more of your time"

Me: "just a thought we we kinda didn't get to know each other's names"

The girl: "I'm Judie"

Me: "I'm Ma'an, it was a pleasure talking to you"

Judie: "the pleasure's mine, don't forget you said that you'll come and eat some dinner next time"

Me: "hhhhh, it was a blast don't worry inshallah, this is my number" -handing her my number-

Judie: "take care"

Me: "you too"

After that I went to gym, had dinner with the boys, talking, having fun it turned out it was 12 so basically that means my day ended.

As I reached home my phone rang.

Me: "Hla (hi in Arabic) Sa'ad, how are you man? Missed you"

Sa'ad: "Hla bek (the usual reply to Hla) Hla bl engaged Hla ble passed us over"

Me: -laughing- "engaged? Engaged what?" -confused-

Sa'ad: "really man you throw a couple of words at that time and think I'm that stupid to understand them"

Me: -laughing- "easy Mr I can catch it while it's flying"

Sa'ad: "you know it, wallah you guys are getting all high and mighty, one's getting married, 2 are engaged"

Me: "Yallah 38bal ma nfr7 fek Ya 7beb 8lbe (a saying you say when someone congrats you on your proposal or wedding if your not married or engaged already it's like saying your next inshallah) but I haven't proposed yet, she kind of got away I'll tell you about it tomorrow I wanna sleep now. Mashallah who's the other one that got engaged too?"

-Aceel RD

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